this is it?

there's only one an hour but sometimes i can catch the express train on my way home from work. it comes from nikko and heads into tokyo. today was one of those sometimes. it's a 21minute non stop train and i slept for a good solid 15 minutes before waking up in perfect time to get off. as i walked into the joining train car, i recognized a girl i studied abroad with in tokyo! i knew she was back in japan, visiting, but what are the chances she went to nikko today and was coming home on THAT train?! another small world moment, to say the least.

she was with a girl i'd never met before and they were headed to takadanobaba for drinks at a cowboy/texan themed bar. i tagged along and had three (or was it four?) rum and cokes, an avocado salad and chicken quesadillas. the food was average, the drinks were good (though you can't really screw up rum and coke unless you're trying, right?) but it was great to catch up with my friend.

we did some serious reminiscing about our study abroad in tokyo. those months were probably the most ridiculous months of my life. an absolute free for all. (most people will say that i was just making up for lost time. haha) of course there are some things that i probably wouldn't do again or that i would do a bit differently, but i don't regret any of it.

but talking about the way we lived in college makes me realize i AM getting older. i'm an...adult? i was saying that sometimes i just feel like i should have my shit together more than it feels like i do. but, upon consideration, i have a stable job, i pay my rent and bills every month, i cook dinner about 3 or 4 times a week, and i have a thriving social life and have activities that make me happy. i guess i can't ask for too much more (at least not all at once!) though there are a couple on the wish list (wink wink).

maybe it'll never feel like i'm there. maybe no one ever does. or maybe this is as adult as it gets? do people just wake up one day and realize, "hey, i'm a grownup!" or does everyone always feel like a kid wandering around struggling to fit into an adult world?