nakanaori?

oh yeah, Ro showed up at my place on wednesday night (the night i wrote the forty eight hour post) just after midnight.  unfortunately, i was sound asleep and when he came in.

he was backlit by the genkan light and i didn't have my contacts in, so i couldn't tell it was him.  i was so scared because i was startled awake, looked up and saw a dark shadow figure in my apartment.  i thought someone was breaking in!

there were no apologies, just an omission of the last couple days' happenings.  on top of that, he was "in the mood" and i was most definitely not.  i had just been scared half to death by his sneaky entrance and especially after our fight on monday, if he wants to get back on my good side, a little cuddling must come first!  apparently, in my half sleepy state, i said, "what, you just came over for sex?!" but i don't remember saying it.  ha!

thursday, i woke up early and soon after that, Ro woke up.  he was surprised i was up so early because he said he has this image of me sleeping a lot and sleeping in late on my days off.  i told him that i always wake up between 6-8am, even on the days i sleep in until 10 or 11.  i always wake up early and have to go to the bathroom; it's just a matter of whether on not i go back to sleep or not.

we stayed in bed until 9:30 or so (wink wink) and finally got up for breakfast and then just lounged around all morning.  we wandered out for lunch around noon.  then he had plans to go to a friend's to watch the horse races and i had plans to head to roppongi for the launch party of ask caroline.  we agreed to meet up for dinner afterward and headed out into the pouring rain, going our separate ways.

with the exception of a few minutes during lunch, when Ro brought up the topic of our fight (not the actual fight, or apologizing for anything, but the original topic that instigated the fight) and i calmly answered his question with a "and that's the end of this discussion" tone, it was as if nothing had happened three days earlier.  i didn't want to rehash the whole thing, especially since i was going out after lunch, but damn are we stubborn.  ha.

i went to the party, which was enjoyable, but a little awkward.  i used to be so easygoing and could strike up a conversation with anyone!  what has happened to me?!  :(  i didn't know anyone there (out of probably 150-200 people) and most people seemed to be there with friends, having drinks and laughing and enjoying themselves.  luckily another girl and i struck up a conversation while waiting in line for the ring toss at the tea booth (i actually won a prize!) and we stuck together the rest of the night.  there were demonstrations for yoga and hula dancing (i can't move my arms and legs at the same time, i discovered) and a bunch of booths, and even a little room with sex toys and other "accessories!"  my new friend and i stood there debating what to get for at least 10 minutes!  i didn't win anything in the big raffle drawing, but everyone left with a goody bag, which, along with a copy of the book, was well worth the 1000yen cost.  i've got another "goody bag goods" post coming up, so i'll leave the details for that one.

Ro and i went out for yakiniku in my neighborhood, came home full and content and had dessert.  (oh, tmi?  sorry!) my sex drive has been lacking lately, and, without being whiney about it, Ro had implied at lunch that he isn't getting enough (that was part of my motivation for the 10 minute debate at the sex booth!) but i think the fact that post-dessert we both crashed on the tatami, waking up just in time for him to catch his train home, is a good sign?  :P

i still feel a bit of lingering tension, but am hoping it's just in my head.  time will tell, i guess...