we were going to go
to the restaurant
where we had our first date.
we haven't been there since
and i was gonna get dressed up.
but well, tonight's dinner date is off.
happy fucking anniversary.
now i need to find a way
to distract my brain
and my heart
and my eyes
until it gets dark
and i can justify going to sleep.
we've never had a fight
that ended without making up,
in some form or another.
all i could do was stand there,
tears rolling down my cheeks,
and watch him walk out the door.
and then from the window,
until i couldn't see him anymore.
it hurts to know "ikanai"
was his answer to
"isho ni ikitakunakereba,
isho ni ikitakunai.
isho ni ikitai hito to ikitai."
but maybe the more logical,
since the tears haven't stopped yet...
happy fucking anniversary.
Monday, September 20, 2010
anniversary
posted by j. at 5:54 PM
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4 comments:
That's no good.. Sorry to hear about that crappy fight. It must be the day for it, because my husband and I haven't spoken all day. I hope things get better x
***HUGS***
Sob sob :( Hope you made yourself something delicious to eat or drank a stiff one to compensate somewhat.
On a shinier note - that material looks gorgeous but I'm not sure what Shaz has in mind. Let me know if you sorted something out Xx
japanmama and jojoebi,
thanks :)
jdrama,
i only had a salad and a couple dinner rolls BUT i didn't do the dishes just to spite him (he hates that i let dishes pile up in the sink). ha!
about the fabric: i replied to her comment on the original post and asked her to email me, but i haven't heard from her, so thought maybe she hadn't seen my reply. i didn't want to put you in the middle, but if you talk to her, could you have her email me (jumpingoverboard at gmail dot com) if she's still interested? thanks so much!!
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