dear #5

dear #5 (you will always be #1 in my book),

tonight we skyped because you texted
saying you had some maybe big news.
it was about something exciting
that may or may not even happen for you work-wise.
i cried, but not because of the news itself.
i felt bad for crying (sorry i'm so selfish)
and you felt bad for making me cry.
you said some of the sweetest things to me
even though i'm sure i didn't look sweet.
i know we will make it work, whatever happens.
even if it means some not so nice situations
for some unknown periods of time.
even with all the uncertainty,
i hope you know that marrying you
is the farthest thing from uncertain i know.

love,
me