30 lines for the 30th

they say the first year is the hardest.
but i imagine not living together
takes away a lot of that "hard"
and adds a completely different kind of
"hard." patience has never been my forte.


i'm coming up on four years at my company.
and am seeing how far i've come by having to
"manage" five versions of three-years-ago me.
it's eye opening. and unsettling that *i*
can/have to make some of the decisions i am.


#5 and i just switched to the new iphone (5s).
new emoticons and a joint calendar between us
excite me more than they probably do for most.
but now i have to re-install and re-enter
all my apps and contacts. but is new and shiny!


the weather has been so perfect lately.
i can wear my hair down, hoodies and jeans!
last year for Bold Moves October, my dress code
was "元カレに会っても恥ずかしくない" but this year
BMO will be work oriented i'm thinking.


wedding planning has settled somewhat,
but still a couple of the "big things" left.
oscillate between wanting to elope and
wishing i had an unlimited budget to do it all.
just gotta keep chipping away at the to-do list.


i just remembered i made some kind of
to-do list for 2013. i never posted it
but it's written somewhere in the back
of a notebook. would be curious to see
how many i've done unconsciously so far.