icing on the lately cake

add to that a 2 hour phone conversation tonight with the guy from the party, which started out innocent enough...

we were talking about the night he came home with me, and i said that i was surprised when he said he was going to my station. he said that he had plans to meet up with friends, who happened to be drinking near my station. he thought i lived one station over and that he was surprised when i got off with him and said that my bike was at that station. it was seemingly an odd combination of misunderstandings that led to what happened. from what i do know, he doesn't seem like the kind of guy to make up a story like that.

after that, it turned into really serious talk and a lot of honesty considering how (not) long we've known each other. and of course tears out of me (it's what i do best...) he said that if it's this hard to know what to do, neither guy is the right one. hmmm...i don't know if i believe that 100% or not, or if i know it's true but don't want to believe it. or something like that.

and i'm left even more confused. i mean, yeah, i'm totally crushing on the teacher, but there's something about this guy too.

but, for now we left it at "ちょっと時間かけて、仲良くしよ…" even though he knows the teacher is in the picture. we're probably having lunch on saturday with another american friend of his, and i've been told not to think too much about it. (ha, he obviously doesn't know what he's dealing with!!) i'll try, but can pretty much guarantee i'll think way more than i should about the whole situation...

and it's 2am again. i need to get back into normal people sleeping patterns.

goodnight.