sunday ☆s

☆ i'm still tired. all the time. i think i was in bed before 10pm most nights this week.

☆ instead of tackling the dirty dishes from yesterday piled in my kitchen, or doing laundry like i should, i parked myself on my couch and watched bad sunday television for most of the day.

☆ the police were making rounds today. i had to fill out one of those "i live here and here's who to call in case something happens" cards. seems fairly routine? my landlord was in the stairwell, chatting to the policeman from one floor below (he must have stopped there first and she probably said something about me to him, like "she's a foreigner" or something, based on the conversation...whatever.) so i felt like it was a legit policeman and worth giving them my information. he waited outside while i filled in the form. after giving it back to him and shutting the door, i realized i didn't write the building name or my apartment number on the card. oops.

☆ after more tv, i finally crawled into bed. i set my alarm for an hour later. when it went off, i reset it for another hour. when i woke up the next time, it was from a fitful, stressful, upsetting dream. i was late for school, but ran into Cheer on the train. we were both late. but it was dark out. and i got to the meeting and everyone i saw in the hall was apologizing for having moved my desk and where they had to put it. it wasn't in any of the groups of desks, but just sort of tacked onto the side, with no space on any side of my desk for a chair. everyone else's stuff was surrounding it and i had no chair to use anyway. it was in the high school staff room (and my "actual" desk was in the middle school) so i didn't really care where my desk was, but for some reason, it was just the icing on the cake and i started crying. so i was running in the halls of school (not actually my school in real life, but in my dream it was my school) and i was bawling, and i thought i was supposed to be teaching a class but wasn't sure, and i couldn't pull myself together. and i just kept running around not knowing where i should be or go or what i should do. (does this sound like my life right now or what?!! way to go subconscious.)

☆ i have been waiting for an avocado to ripen to make salad dressing and it's finally ripe, but i don't have the motivation to do anything like make homemade salad dressing or cook dinner.

☆ i also should start packing for Kyoto/Kobe. we're leaving wednesday, but we have to take our bags to school on tuesday. it seems like i should do laundry before trying to pack though. whatever, it'll all work out. i hope.

☆i'm getting more serious about getting a DSLR camera. i haven't touched my mt fuji paycheck and had decided while on mt fuji that i was going to buy one with my paycheck. i just haven't gotten around to researching and looking at them. but am thinking, this one?

☆speaking of which, it's payday tomorrow. yay.