sleep please.

lately i just haven't been able to get enough sleep.

monday i was feeling the results of climbing mt fuji and instead of the weekend recharging my batteries, i was just disenchanted by everything. especially my job.

tuesday and wednesday were half days at work so i was able to leisurely cook dinner, take a bath (so unlike me!) and get in bed before 10pm both nights, i think. i don't know, i can't remember. it's all just an exhausted blur. :(

thursday was a regular day at work, but it's a light day for me. Cheer and i left work together and i resolved to text CB that night when i got home. i haven't heard anything in several weeks (i'm still waiting for a response to my invitation to go out to dinner i sent 3 weeks ago...) and finally gave in to texting him. i didn't post about it explicitly, but back in august, we kind of crossed the "friend" line but he bolted (unfortunately, literally) and now...i just am so confused. the whole thing is just kind of disheartening. i was in bed thursday by 11pm.

then, in return for a light mid-week, i have a killer friday at work. four classes in a row before lunch, lunch, followed by a free period and then one more class to round out the afternoon. luckily being so busy means no time to think. think time = dwelling.

after work, i came home, changed clothes and headed to ikebukuro. my friend, who was working in bali came home to japan on thursday morning so it was something resembling a welcome home party. i didn't drink that much. i think more than the drinks, it was staying out late that did me in.

if today had been a regular saturday, it would have been fine, but i had to work this morning (at the school open house and do a demonstration english conversation lesson) and was dragging from the get go.

i got home and decided a nap was in order. i told myself it'd just be an hour, but one soon became three after resetting my alarm clock once and then just turning it off completely. i was pulled from my third hour by a random phone call. hmph.

now it's an hour later and i'm already considering just curling up for the night.

this exhaustion really needs to find its way out of my life. i miss being energetic and smile-ly and...dare i say, happy.