wordy wednesday

i have this sinking feeling there was something i was supposed to do today.

i'm pretty sure it wasn't sleep past 10am, or eat two bagels (thawed and tasting slightly of freezer burn) smothered in margarine (that i accidentally left out last night), or lounge around in my pajamas.

no, i'm pretty sure it wasn't any of those things. but if it was, well then i'm ahead of the game.


a couple weeks ago, in a week of actual, active job searching, i started a profile over at gaijinpot.com. i've always thought of it as a place with minimal non-teaching jobs and dozens upon dozens of teaching jobs. i'm not really looking for a teaching job.

or, i wasn't.

but my bank account is quickly approaching a big fat scary number. and i'm still jobless (my heart would love to say job-free, but again, bills, people, bills. and food). and it just so happens there are teaching jobs out there for 2000-4000yen an hour. so i decided that if it was part time, and i could still go to japanese school and pay my rent without getting depressed, then maybe a teaching somethingorother wouldn't be so bad.

but nothing came through. either the hours conflicted with my japanese class, or the employer never contacted me ("please note only successful candidates will be contacted")

until last night.

i got an email from a company (not a school) who looked at my profile and wanted to contact me. (really??) so i got home and immediately updated my profile (slash altered my resume a bit to reflect the non-teaching position) and applied for the job.

i looked around on the site a little bit and found another job that looked really promising. good pay, okay location, what seems like fairly standard "office work", and...lots of business trips to the US. get paid to get a taste of "home"? i'm in!! i figured, hey, what do i have to lose, right? so i applied.

i woke up this morning to no knew emails, which was disheartening, but it had only been 8 hours so i tried not to get too down.

and then, there it was.

a reply asking for a japanese resume (with photo. oh japan...eh, whatever, if blue eyes get me a job, i probably won't complain.) so i scrambled around to update an old japanese resume file (from march 17. oh how ambitious i used to be.) and took a photo of my "application photo" so i have a digital copy now. off the resume went.

but i'm still worried that there was something i was supposed to do.


Ro and i are going on a date tonight. dinner and a movie. it's been 4 months. it feels like a lot longer than that (for better or worse). he yielded to my california pizza kitchen request (hello huge glasses of free-refill-fun-flavored-lemonade!). i have a feeling that means i should just agree to see whatever movie he wants to see. actually, the conversation went something like this:

"can we go to california pizza kitchen?"

"you wanna go there?"

"yeah! come on..."

"what are you gonna do when i get fat and my stomach sticks out more than it already is?"

"no worries, i promise exercise too." followed by laughter.

"さすが." followed by laughter.
(sorry, i don't know how to translate sasuga...)

speaking of these kinds of comments, gaijin wife has been cracking me up lately with some of her posts. so funny.

i have some studying to do for class tomorrow and should probably clean my apartment since it's fallen into some ridiculous state of disorder. and possibly after that (because i'm trying to channel my once previous ambitious self) i'll pull out the clothes that have been packed into the back of my closet and do inventory of what i've got, followed by some serious purging. i have such a hard time parting with things, but it must be done. it must. (am i convincing anyone?) because! american clothes shopping is only 8 weeks away. we'll worry about where the money for that's gonna come from later. just let me dream for a little bit.

and hopefully i don't remember what it was i was supposed to do today; my pajamas are quite comfortable.