leap year!

i decided that in honor of today, i would play some leap frog. i did some quality facebook perusing. even living in tokyo, i'm often reminded how very small the world is. as it turns out, a couple of you are only three degrees of separation away from me.

for example, say i'm A.
and i'm friends with B.
and B is friends with C.
and C is friends with D.
and you are D.

crazy i tell ya. ...or i'm just weird and/or creepy for spending time looking at friends of blog friends (you're easier to find than you may think) but you have to admit it's pretty amazing that i happened to come across people that i had mutual friends with!! unfortunately i decided, way back when, that on facebook (and mixi) that i would only be friends with people i have actually met in real life. so, i'm hoping someday i can meet some of you and then increase the mutual friend circle!

yes, i like the sound of this idea. mostly because in the next several months, i'm going to make a conscious effort to go to new places, meet new people and try new things. i'm already planning to attend this event at the end of march and am looking for things to do during my spring break. (sarah, i may actually take you up on the tokyo friends offer.)

of course half of this is driven by the whole falling out i've had with Carr. i still like him and want to be with him, but am feeling like i've been left high and dry. it just seems so unlike him and i really was beginning to fall hard. i was imagining our future. i often caught myself daydreaming about what it would be like if things went well. i even imagined moving in together somewhere. but now...i am determined not to let this break me. i want to hope that things aren't what i think and that when i get back from canada, we can talk things out and go back to being us. but i know i'm probably just setting myself up for more heartbreak.

so it's back to the drawing board. it's back to trying to believe that i am beautiful and funny and interesting. that i have wonderful friends and to treasure them for all that they are to me. so it's back to trying to believe that i too am amazing and worth an equally amazing guy's time.

and then eyeing the cute boy across the room.