dual trains of thought

i just cut my fingernails. typing is easy again. and yet, i can still click them on the table and it's more than just the pads of my fingers. i love the sound of fingernails pitter-pattering on tabletops. i think i love it because growing up i could never make it. and now i actually have to cut my fingernails! crazy.

i ate all the starburst i was going to give you. i wish i could have given them to you instead.

i had a mcdonald's mcflurry the other day, while being "subtly" ushered out by the song that it traditionally played at new years. apparently that's their way of saying, "hey we're closing, get the heck out of our restaurant!" we stayed til i finished anyway.

i've got too many names to keep them all straight.

i ran into some people giving free hugs on a street in shinjuku yesterday. they were merely products of the belief that all americans hug as a typical greeting. this is japan folks! and plus it brings me to alter a quote i saw the other day to "he who hugs everyone, hugs no one." sometimes the rampant stereotypes of americans drive me up the wall.

can i keep my eyes on the foreground until the background fades out of focus and is drawn back up into the rafters?

valentine's day is coming up. sigh. that's about all i have to say about that. girls give chocolate to boys on valentine's day. and the boys get the chance to reciprocate on white day, march 14th. i don't know how i feel about the whole thing. it's almost more commericialized than the u.s. ..or, it is more. ?

or maybe it's just that i wish i could see you on valentine's day.

i got two letters today. one from my mom and one from a friend at school. sometimes it's depressing to come home to pizza and sushi delivery service flyers. but today was different. in so many ways. then i also got a bonus from work, for working overtime on the 6 entrance exam days. that new mattress is as good as mine. a good night sleep is just a fraction of my bonus away. mornings are about to get exponentially better.

but you'll never be there to say goodmorning before i even open my eyes or kiss me in the doorway on the way out. so, goodbye?

this is a big mess, but that's what we're working with here. early to bed...goodnight.