if i didn't actually need you...

it's been a rollercoaster these last few weeks.
i don't know where it's heading, but i know that
i have no where else to go but right where i am.

i've been working my ass off (yeah, what's new, right?)
and we finally met our fall campaign number this week.
i was going to be devastated if we didn't after every-
thing we've been through in the last nine long months.

plus, despite getting my tonsils taken out and being careful
and staying relatively healthy, the throat issues continue.
i am losing my voice, again. so i forced myself to the doctor
today and got more medicine - the same stuff i got at the end
of august, but we're one man short at work and everyone else
is battling colds right now, so time off is hard to come by.

but if i can't sing, much less talk, i can't exactly work.
it's so frustrating because i feel fine except for my voice...

basically, it's *all* just so f'ing frustrating.

sigh.