a no go

i'm getting over the apartment.

though, not very well, i should add.

it was so much better than anything

i've seen for rent in tokyo.

the price was perfect.

(well, the deposit and reikin were a bit high

but that's the japan real estate way, no?)

the size was considerably bigger than our minimum.

it had a private roof balcony above it

as big as the actual apartment.

it was five minutes from a sort of minor train line.

but would mean an hour commute for both Ro and me.

more than that, there were other money/work related issues

that meant we can't actually move.

well, i can move.  Ro can't.

...sigh.

i was under the impression that if we found

a place, we'd be able to move.

apparently that's not the case.



i need to stop looking if we can't move.

i just get carried away daydreaming

and then seriously let down.






12:55am edit:
we were on the phone talking about other things
(as i, typically, went through another box of tissues)
and he figured might as well just get it out in the open;
more than the commute, or all the work issues,
it's "us" that's the issue.  i said if that's the case,
let's stopping looking at apartments then.  he said okay.
glad he just came out and said it, but damn it hurts.