english with Zara, part III

i just got home from my third monday of english with Zara. not only is he all of the things i said before, but he's a thinker.

we talked a lot. about life. about family, being rebellious, marriage, careers, dreams, compromise and values. i said a few things i usually don't say out loud to people. i don't know what got into me. so i qualified it all by saying that inside, i'm a fairly negative person, despite having a seemingly only happy-go-lucky attitude.

to which he said something along the lines of, "people around you might tell you that saying those kinds of things is negative thinking, but i don't think so. i think most people think those things too; they just don't say them. i think you are a encouraged person, no, i mean (then, in japanese:) 'you have courage.' you aren't...scared for saying that? (in question form, unsure of his english)"

"you mean, 'afraid of saying that.' well, because if they say them, then they become real."

"right, and other people are afraid to say them, but you aren't."

oh if only he really knew.